Message for you, Pak

 It's been a year now. 

Sekarang sudah sehat dan sudah bisa jalan - jalan ya diatas sana? 

Happy gak Pak? 

Kadang aku berpikir, kalau bapak masih ada udah berapa cerita yang kuceritakan ? 

Udah berapa kejadian, berapa pertanyaan, berapa permintaan, berapa keluhan dan berapa pantun yang akan kusampaikan Pak? 

Inget gak soal lomba pantun ini Pak? 

Dan tiba - tiba aku menang HAHAHAHA

Sempat aku berpikir, kalau bapak pergi selanjutnya aku harus apa? Kedepannya aku mesti gimana..

Bapak tau gak, aku pikir aku gak sedih sama sekali dan ikhlas di 2 bulan pertama Bapak pergi

Sampai teman dan boss-ku sempat bilang "Kamu gak keliatan sedih, udah ikhlas ya?" 

Karena perkataan itu aku sempet mikir, emang iya ya aku udah gak sedih? 

Kupikir aku gila..

Ternyata aku beneran hampir gila because I missed you so much Pak.. too much that I can't handle it anymore

I tried to be happy but actually every day, every night I cry. 

Sometimes I think, you still here but then the reality hit me so hard that I will never see you again

My heart break and my tears coming down again and again. 

I missed you so much until I think I need to seek some help, it hurts that much

it's like a denial 

Bapak bisa liat gak diary yang kutulis selama 1 bulan setelah bapak pergi? Rasa kecewa, marah dan sedih bercampur jadi satu

Now, it's been a a year. 

My life is still running until now

But my lose and my love for you will never change, I still missed you that much

You still the best and will always be the best

My annoying Father and buddy at the same time

Happy anniversary Pak, I know you are in your very best place and I'm glad for that. 

I love you 🤍

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From your daughter who will miss and love you always